Maybe this should stay in my head??

4:08pm: Peep!
So I know I havn't posted in just about forever and a day! I'm still alive still kickin I just don't do anything worth reporting ^_~ HOWEVER!!!! I dropped my phone into the bathtub........ apparently they are not waterproof....... sigh I lost my phonebook so please call or text me with your infos!!! I feel so lonely sniffles...

12:56am: Ahhh Tuesday!
So I’m generally shy about posting on LJ especially after going out to clubs and drinking multiple shots of GM. I often find I ramble incoherently and make sense only to myself and only at the time. I reread what I have written and vow to myself never to be heard from again. But I am after all me............. so here it goes again. I had a wonderful time tonight and actually feel like I’m coming out of a cave.
A little history: I have had a major upset in my life and have been rather disorientated. I got used to having a place to be, a place where someone cared when I got out of work and where I was welcome without direct invitation. That was hard for me, the just assuming I could show up, I never really felt comfortable as if it were my own house but I was always welcome. Even growing up I always felt like an outsider in my parents house, they always loved and protected me, but I know things would have been better if I hadn’t come along so early. I kind of talked myself in to believing this was different, I wasn’t a burden but an equal. I guess I was wrong again.
So fast forward.......... I’m making my way back out into public. I went out to Chief Ikes and hung out with folks. I laughed and talked and felt wonderful! Last Sunday I spent the day with a cool person and for the first time remembered that I can just laugh, not at someone or something specific, just laugh because it really is OK. Tonight ws the same. The Bueno never got old and someone I’ve never met before looked at the tattoo on my leg and started singing Dance, Dance, Dance to the Radio!!! I am not alone. To quote a friend, I just have not cultivated the right people. I really think after 36 years of solitude (no not 100) I may just find my way yet........ but for now I’m just going to sleep. But I think my dreams will be happy.

2:39am: Where are my squishy pillows?????
I own at least 7 pillows and right now I cannot find any of the broken down soft ones! Arrrgh, cannot one thing go well? At least I have the plushie bunny Mom gave me last Easter................................... Oh BTW if you are ever depressed never watch The United States of Leland. Talk about the movie version of "The Stranger" AND!!! I set my apt on fire. Apparently if you kick over an iron you forgot to unplug on your way to work it will burn straight thru your wood floor. No open flame, but a nice smoldering charchol thing. HMMMM wood smoke is so soothing. Good night.

2:03am: ............................BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
I need say no more.................
http://www.columbia.edu/~rhee/

12:38am: beer shot out of my nose.......
http://www.plur.net/thisland.html
what a fitting way do end a day of utter laziness!

8:31pm: WOOT!!!
After nearly THREE YEARS!!!! My Vespa has made it to Virginia. Now I need to get it running. Does anyone have a battery charger suitable for a motorcycle battery? Or better yet, does anyone know a motorcycle owner who dabbles in maintenance??

2:29am: A random Poll
Would it be worth the reduction in karma points to have this guy towed? I pull in tonight and there is only one spot left in the main lot. So I ask the man who is parked in the next stall to close his passenger door so I can pull in. He tells me no he is waiting for his guest......no guest parking in the main lot!!....only spot left......He calls me an ass hole..(BTW is it only me that thinks masculine with that phrase? Girls can be call so many other things..) We get into it, so finally I go into the other lot but on my way back I use one finger, yes the middle one, to close the door to his cab. Now the other cab parked next to him does not have a parking sticker. I want him towed...........but at what cost to my soul? grrrrrrrrr I am fighting the pettiness in my soul but it would feel so good to have justice. The human condition I guess.

10:22pm: perhaps it's best I don't often have days off
but then again lets talk about the important things everyone should post about ^_~

Sorry joanarkham I’ve swept about two pounds of cicada larva and sluggish adults off my porch I cannot get excited about the swarm.....

I’ve defiantly decided I like Vanilla rum over spiced rum for mixing with my diet coke.

I cried today when I read this passage:
“In the end it doesn’t matter a damn bit. We thought we were special, opening our perceptions, honing our empathy, spilling that cauldron of shared pain onto the dance floor and then trying to make a minuet out of all that chaotic hurt. It doesn’t matter a damn bit. We’re no avatars no sons of god or man. We’re only us, scribbling out conceits alone, reading alone, and dying alone.”

I couldn’t decide whether to watch CSI:Miami or Teen Titans.....so I turned off the TV

9:12pm: and I’ve even been buying pastel clothing...........
It’s funny, I’ve been away from the “scene” for a while now. Simply because I got sick and then a new job, and I’ve been trying to fit in with my new coworkers. I’ve been going to clubs like Dreams and 5 and really trying to make myself believe I was having fun. You know what? Those clubs SUCK!!! They are overpriced flesh pits where the guys don’t have enough self respect to keep their dirty nasty little hands to themselves and the women gauge their self worth by how many times some greasy little shit gives them the once over. However, I will admit you can dance! Some of that club shit really opens up to movement, I guess that's why I kept going. But after going to Goth Prom and remembering that there are people out there with things to say and music that is more that just a techno riff (of course some of the music in “goth” clubs falls back to that) I was happy and more comfortable than I’ve been in months! A wanna come home!

12:35am: BWAHAHHAHAHAHAHHH
am officially laughing my ass off...........I was hit on by former Senator Gary Hart. wheee I could make the tabloids one day!!!!

8:00pm: operation life reclamation.........
I lost myself for a while too much work, illness, and a complete withdrawal from life. Well things are looking up! I gave them an ultimatum at work, no more 6 day (4 doubles) weeks. Funny because I quit the job, they were willing to give me a human schedule. It took a couple of weeks of catching up on sleep, but now I’m motivated. I cleaned the bathroom and kitchen and it was very satisfying! I also spent almost an hour unclogging the hose to the vacuum cleaner, now I have no excuse.......the living room is next. I think however it will take all day to tackle my bedroom. Better wait till Tuesday I have the day off. Well back to the cleaning whirl wind!

5:45pm: SQUEELEEEEE
Grinning like a loon I shout out!!!!! I fucking needed that!!! Whoo hoo dancing in circles and giggling. Now I'm going to go take a nap!

3:08pm: hehhehehe
Watching gunsmoke on painkillers..........my new favorite quote of all time.
"Boy, even a hardboiled egg is yellow on the inside."

11:19am: peep
....I'm not dead. Sorry to everyone I have not talked to in a while. Been kinda under the whether. Good news is the computer is back at full strength and I’ve been able to catch up on allot of great anime. Bad news no clubbing or social anything until I get back on my feet. So everyone MUST have fun for me!! Later

8:21pm: well I gots me a job
Now I literally have to get a penquin suit. Tux pants and shirt even suspenders and a bow tie. OOOh sexy. Geeze those things are pricey! Anyway I'll soon be back in the black and able to go clubbing again! I'll also be able to buy cels again whooooooooo.

10:07pm: well in responce to the gentle poke about not posting......
Ok if anyone is interested here's what I did today.......scratch.......stretch......yawn. Well then I went to the store to get more stuff for this party on Saturday. Looks like I'll spend about 230 of the 600 bucks I charged on food, my time is obviously free (yes I sent out a ressi today with the help of my most wonderful friend Evil_1_2 and his magic fax machine) that means I'll be able to pay rent this month...need to find work soon. Otherwise I've been cooking up a storm, I always over prep for these things.....Plus it is a bitch doing all this stuff without my industrial kitchens. Today I made bread, brownies, chicky fingers, cookies and picked a dozen crabs (no I could not find crab meat pro-fish where are you?) and prepped the salmon for poaching. because of my little ity bity stove I have to do one thing at a time........grrrrr Anywho I've made progress on the search for a bartender at least a person has expressed interest. I'll have to dress Andreas up and make him shake martinis if all else fails. So thats all folks.

8:38pm: ahhhh I found the floor
Well, I've been unpacking and unpacking and unpacking.......I'm almost ready for the housewarming pot luck party. It looks like it will be a little too chilly for out door socializing, but I'll have the grill going. Remember it is this Saturday about 7ish just email me if you need directions.

10:31pm: Well Fuck....
I just found out one of the most wonderful people I've ever known died. He was the bouncer at Camelot, Steve. He always made sure I walked home safely and was one of the few "good" people. Not just someone who knew everyone but someone who made a difference in the day to day lives of everyone he knew. Have you ever known someone who without deep commitment or philosophical debate, just knew human nature.
I'll miss him. I never even knew his last name, but I'll miss him more than most.

11:36am: Back to life.......
I think I liked dealing with the natural disaster more than the state of my life now. Job hunting is hard when there is nothing you want to do. Anyway enough of the negative let me tell you of my adventures with Isabel! Let me start by saying that if a sheriff comes to your house and tells you to get out.....GO! However, the problem was that the shelters they wanted everyone to go to (the roads were hopelessly congested and we did not want to be in a car when the storm hit) did not allow pets. The tidal surge crested at about 12 ft, but it was the rushing in from the bay. It washed away 4 houses on the road Mom lives on. We only got about two feet in the lower levels of the house, thankfully that was the only real damage. At 3 pm those who still were on the point realized that our house was the one that was going to stand so we started evacuating pets. We had birds, cats, dogs even turtles in the house. Meanwhile the folks across the street were frantically trying to board against the waves that were literally breaking into the house. Unfortunatly we couldn't save very much, but they were lucky the walls stood. Sadly they don't expect to get power restored for two weeks or so. All the power line are gone.......along with the poles. Oh Mom's car was totaled, water didn't get into the engine but the salt water destroyed the electrical system. We also had to fight off looters. Thursday night two of us were up all night with flashlights and yes guns. It was surprising the number of trucks that came through that and the next night. A few were legit and when they saw us came up and asked if there was anyone hurt or who needed to get out. But the majority ran at the sight of our flashlights, bastards. Well enough of my rambling, I'm home and have taken 4 baths to try and get the flood mud out of my hair and get my feet clean. I literally slept for about 14 hrs yesterday. Now I need to get the apt ready to move.......arrgh back to life.

11:06pm: BWAHAHHAHA
They actually, in a press conference, asked those citizens who plan on ignoring the evacuation orders to take a permanent marker and write their names and socials on there forearm. Reasoning that it would make identifications easier if things went poorly. Well it's 11 pm and things are still rather calm. It's creepy being in the house though with all the windows boarded over. So I did the noble thing, I took a bath. I needed to shave my legs so I had a smooth surface to write my name on ^_~
Anyway, if things go as planned I'll be home Saturday. I surely do not want to be here for the clean up!
Night!

2:13pm: The Sky is falling!!!
God my Mom comes running into my room this morning. "we have to leave they just announced mandatory evacuations for Hampton Roads!" Arrgg I just got to sleep and I'm whipped from tying boats down all day yesterday. BTH we have 8 boats three at Severn River and 5!!! in the back yard. It turns out that channel 13 misunderstood the ticker and the governer said that he was giving authority over evacuations over to local governments, not that he was ordering them. Chanel 10 has been making fun of the competition all day. Anywho we went to the grocery and got 3 cases of beer and lots of Doritos. Mom and I are ready. The flooding is up to the bulk heads now. Yep all hell is going to break loose soon, but hey someone has to keep Mom from imploding. Defiantly better than wallowing. This may be my last post, I've already lost cellular and the wind has picked up to about 29 mph. Not much now but it doesn't take much to throw a loose limb into the phone lines. We are not leaving at this point, we don't want to get caught on a highway with two hyper Dogs and one hyper mother. I'm thinking of slipping benadril into her Bud light. Later!!

7:21pm: Update from Hampton
Weeee they have started evacuations about two hours south of us. There are reports every 30 minutes urging people no to "let their Guard Down" the storm front still has to cross the gulf stream and it coupled with the current warm conditions could bring it back up to a class 3. Hmmmm we've decided not to leave unless it becomes mandatory. I spent all day moving boats and boarding up windows. Of course my parents are freaks so they long ago painted the ply wood covering the windows to coordinate with the house. "what if the news trucks come by?" I've also come to the conclusion Mom has too many lawn ornaments. Her white trash roots are starting to peek through. Otherwise the weather is perfect today!!! We ate dinner down on the peir while the dogs swam. It was a perfect sunset, if you ignore the strange color and the complete lack of birds. Oh and the tidal surge has already started bringing the water up level with the dock. Thats why we are staying, the winds don't seem as severe but there is no doubt there will be flooding. The word for thursday is damage control. Oh well, I'm off.

7:19pm: just a heads up
Since I'm unemployed and basically a free agent I'm headed south to help Mom board up the house. I may head inland with her to Charlotte if we need to evacuate. Dad is in Hong Kong and she needs some help. I can't gaurantee I'll be in touch with anyone, her phone lines are all above ground and there is literally miles of wire out to the peninsula she lives on. Plus my cheap cel phone doesn't work in storms. Sorry for ducking out but hey it's more productive than the wallowing thing I had planned on originally. ^_~

4:25pm: Well.......
Today I lost my job. I threatened to call in the IRS to find out why my pay was shorted AGAIN and was "let go" In actuallity I'm much better off, the place was killing me. Now I need to find me a new gig. Until then does anyone have a place to park an extra car for two weeks until we move into the new place. I figured it would be bad form to continue to park it in the school lot......God life just keeps getting better.

11:05pm: I love watching Karma at work
Due to the construction in my neighborhood, parking has been a bit cut throat lately. So I'm coming home from work tonight in the TINY little Miata when I happened upon a very nice spot near to my building. There was a big SUV behind me so I pulled way ahead and let him go around. Well Mr I Dirve a suped up white Mustang because I have a small penis took the opportunity to snipe the spot I was going to park in!!!! Bastard. Anyway I'm rather ticked off, but a little further down the block was the ONLY other available spot, I proceeded to park there. As I'm getting out I see the ASS who ducked into my Miata sized spot give up, his car was too big to fit in the space. I sooo made sure he knew I was laughing at him. I can't stop giggling.